GOD's Blessing

This 5th Semester is kinda the hardest ever. My under-3-GPA. I got D for Complex Analysis and T for my favorite subject, Linear Algebra (whose re-evaluation's maximum score is C). Sigh.
I was talking to my mom about my dissatisfaction, and mom said "It may be because you were cruel and were a wicked person, Dear.". DANG! There I became speechless. That was MY MOM talking about my self. Mom knows best, right?
I didn't cry but my heart did.
That was a hit, Mom. But yes, you were right.
I might study hard but eventually still got D. Why? Because in the end we need God's blessing, guys.

Simply, just like the parents to their children, so does God to us.
Waktu kita kecil, kalau kita nggak nakal dan jadi anak yang baik, they get whatever we want, right?
Kayak mitos kertas SPMB yang ketumpahan kopi petugas scannernya. Semuanya tergantung restu Tuhan. Sepinter apapun kita kalau Tuhan mau, bisa aja kertas ujian kita ketumpahan kopi itu. Dan mungkin karena satu orang pinter yg gak beruntung itu, satu orang biasa yang baik hatinya bisa masuk perguruan tinggi yang dia mau.

I really really really want to be a good person. No, not because that kind of fortune that comes to the good ones. But because I fear, I'm afraid God will hate me.
Thus, in order to get a better personality, I got rules of mine.

1. Talk less.
I usually become annoying when I talk too much, saya jadi orang yang sok tau.
2. Read more & write more.
I need to let inspiration come into my brain. It helps me to act wisely. So I have to read just anything. I also find that I get a better perspective when I write. And more than that it feels so good to share and inspire people with my writings. (I know there's even no one read this blog, but just let me talk as if there's someone reads, hehe :) )
3. Have proper sleep
I don't know if it's related or not, but I feel good whenever I wake up from a proper sleep. :p So let me set 10 PM as my sleep time. :D
4. Be more thankful. :)
5. And also SMIILLLE! :D

Dan untuk menata kembali what had been messed, I also made a resolution, my personal goals in 2011. Yes, it's January 17th, and it may be toooo laaattteee to make one, but I made it anyway.

1. Focused on muy study. Got a nice GPA.
2. Still give contribution to the organizations but keep my self not to got into it too much. (I'm considering not to be on badan pengurus/executive board.)
3. Get less distracted.
Boyfriend, friends, korean dramas, internet, etc.
4. Have proper plan and preparation in every little thing, include the lectures.
5. Have a traineeship/apprenticeship.
6. Get A for Complex Analysis in Semester Pendek.
7. Save more money. Pretty much money at the end of the year.
8. Eat less junk foods. Eat more vegetables, fruits, and vitamins.
9. And sure 45-kilograms-body-shape :D
10. Finish my dream script. :)
11. (I leave it to be filled next)

"Success is not to be pursued; it is to be attracted by the person you become."
-Jim Rohn

Let's be a good person and a good child for GOD. Let HIM love you. And feel the blessing. <3

Hello 2011! :)

It's my first hello on 2011!
How are you? How was the NYE? Delightful, no?
Well it's maybe too late to share mine, but I just want to share, hehe. :)

I used to celebrate every NYE with my family from mother's side. We went out the town, blow the paper trumpet, family worship, late night dinner, and surely enjoy the fireworks up in the very new year sky. This year i spent it way simpler. It's my first time staying home at NYE. My father got things to do at his office, my teen-little-brother went out with his friends, and so it left me and my mother, and I thought I would be able to get my first experience celebrating NYE with my friends. But then mom told me not to leave her alone. So what could I say? I stayed at home. I was thinking that it would be the homeliest NYE I'd have. There were nothing special to do on my NYE, but him, my boyfriend, hehe. Fortunately, he came to my house. He's the brightest evening star, shine even much better than the fireworks.

It's my first time spending NYE with someone, it's the night when I realize that God loves me very much, and I thank God for the best gift He gave on 2010. Yohanes Satrio Wicaksono. :)
So, I can't wait to live the 2011 life, feel the experience, and get His bigger givings. I love you, God. Please do love me too and my family and all the beloved person.
MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011! :)